Walking Through A Target

Okay, I finally feel a little better today. This last month has been really rough. I wish I could explain what has gotten me feeling depressed or anxious, but I truly do not know. I wish I could just point at some big thing that was the root of it, but I truly only focused on dumb little shit which brought me down.

So while I am feeling back to normal, let me share some news from the past month. Today I am going to focus on my health. Now, I am still doing well on my weight loss adventure. I am feeling good and not as tired as I was even months ago. That is what this is about for me. Look, I am going to be honest. I am short, fat, bald, and ugly. If and when I lose the rest of the weight, I will still be short, bald, and ugly. So why the fuck do I care about a number? I do not. Last time I got on a scale I was around 120 pounds lost.

But the best part of this is my bloodwork. Are you ready for this?

Ready?

My cholesterol is under normal for the first time…ever.

In fact, all my bloodwork came out good. So I am doing something right. I just need to keep doing it.

So today I went to Target. Now, this should not be a Substack worthy thing to talk about, but it is. I have not walked around a Target since before the pandemic. Yes, I am the kind of drive ups. Three buttons pressed on the phone and they are loading up my Equinox. Such beauty.

But like I said at the beginning of this post, today I felt good. Better than I have in a month. So I decided to go and walk around Target.

So I am sure you are aware of this, but Target has not changed much in years. It is literally the same. Same self checkout. Same clothes and vitamins and appliances and sports cards and everything. Literally nothing is different.

But I am. You see, a year ago I could not walk around a Target. I was out of breath walking up a flight of stairs. I would breathe heavy walking around my house. I did not walk around stores. I couldn’t.

But today I can. I walked around and went to another store and did the same. I can park far away and walk. I can go to my son’s games and walk. I literally have the energy to walk around without feeling any pain or being out of breath or anything now.

It is only getting better. Now that baseball season is over, son and I will be lifting this summer. Going to keep working on cardio each day. And honestly, I do not think I am far off from being back to where I once was.

But while walking around Target today I was able to realize how far I have come. When I battle depression, I do not have time or energy to think about the positive aspects of my life. Today I did. I am healthier and happier than I was.

And that is really what matters. One day at a time.

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