Today Was Horrible, But…

Today truly was a bad day but…

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Okay, let me start by saying that today sucked. I mean it really sucked. Now you might be thinking “Okay it didn’t suck that bad.” But alas, today was horrible.

Let me start from the beginning, I had a lot of work to do today so I set my alarm for 5am. Except I set it for 5pm. 6:45am rolls around am I’m just getting up, rushing to get done what I needed to before I actually could start work.

Then I start posting some cards. I pulled out a real nice card that I thought would sell around $300-500 easily. That is until I dropped it. And crushed a corner. And now the card is worthless. So far today I’m down a few hundred dollars. It made me mad. In 2018, it would have crushed me.

So I hop on Twitter only to see people taking a joke tweet I posted seriously. Okay that didn’t make me mad. That was actually funny. But what wasn’t funny was someone I respected questioning me on their timeline to 167,000 followers about who I follow. Guess what, I follow who the fuck I want. I blocked her because I don’t need that crap in my life. It made me mad. In 2018 it would have crushed me.

Then the end piece. I FINALLY had a redemption sports card coming that I have been waiting for since 2019. I was excited when it came. It was supposed to be a 2019 Josh Allen Prizm autographed card to 25. Instead I got a 2010 Jackie Slater card that had “NO AUTOGRAPH” printed on it. So today I basically lost around $1,000 dollars, lost a friend, and dealt with stupid people. It made me mad…

In 2018 I was suicidal. My life was the worst it has been. I had nothing. Truly nothing. And I had no one to go to for help. I was hopeless, I was sad. My life was so bad and my depression and anxiety were out of control.

I got the help I needed and slowly life has been getting better. The last few months, my life has gotten in order more and more. I am on my health Journey and writing about it here. Down 35 pounds! I have decided to stop making art for now. I Can focus on things I should have but weren’t able to. So yeah, today was horrible.

But tomorrow won’t be. And in my mind, that’s all that truly matters.