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Okay, let me start by saying that today sucked. I mean it really sucked. Now you might be thinking “Okay it didn’t suck that bad.” But alas, today was horrible.
Let me start from the beginning, I had a lot of work to do today so I set my alarm for 5am. Except I set it for 5pm. 6:45am rolls around am I’m just getting up, rushing to get done what I needed to before I actually could start work.
Then I start posting some cards. I pulled out a real nice card that I thought would sell around $300-500 easily. That is until I dropped it. And crushed a corner. And now the card is worthless. So far today I’m down a few hundred dollars. It made me mad. In 2018, it would have crushed me.
So I hop on Twitter only to see people taking a joke tweet I posted seriously. Okay that didn’t make me mad. That was actually funny. But what wasn’t funny was someone I respected questioning me on their timeline to 167,000 followers about who I follow. Guess what, I follow who the fuck I want. I blocked her because I don’t need that crap in my life. It made me mad. In 2018 it would have crushed me.
Then the end piece. I FINALLY had a redemption sports card coming that I have been waiting for since 2019. I was excited when it came. It was supposed to be a 2019 Josh Allen Prizm autographed card to 25. Instead I got a 2010 Jackie Slater card that had “NO AUTOGRAPH” printed on it. So today I basically lost around $1,000 dollars, lost a friend, and dealt with stupid people. It made me mad…
In 2018 I was suicidal. My life was the worst it has been. I had nothing. Truly nothing. And I had no one to go to for help. I was hopeless, I was sad. My life was so bad and my depression and anxiety were out of control.
I got the help I needed and slowly life has been getting better. The last few months, my life has gotten in order more and more. I am on my health Journey and writing about it here. Down 35 pounds! I have decided to stop making art for now. I Can focus on things I should have but weren’t able to. So yeah, today was horrible.
But tomorrow won’t be. And in my mind, that’s all that truly matters.
Sending support Tony... we've all been there. "This too shall pass." Congrats on the 35 lb weight loss, fantastic work