Sunshine and Rainbows
One of my favorite stories is someone explaining social media to me. They said that being popular on Youtube makes you a millionaire. Being popular on TikTok gets you the best endorsement deals. Being popular on Instagram gets you ambassador deals you can live on.
Being popular on Twitter gets you death threats.
I started being online in 2008. I did it to share a weight loss journey. When I started, my mom would correct my grammar daily. It was a good thing because it made me work harder and harder to pursue writing. In fact, I did not share anything with anyone outside of my family for a year.
After that I tried to write outside the weight loss world. It worked well. Had a couple articles go viral, helped a bullied kid meet Big Time Rush, and got a fan to meet Luke Bryan. I am not the best writer by a long shot. But I will put my humility to the side and admit I can share a story very well.
I left that for Twitter. I went there for easy likes and retweets. Growing up short, fat, and ugly has its benefits of being able to comment on a horrible person and get attention. I was a Trump responder. I shared my views on social issues. And none of that really mattered in the grand scheme of things..
Recently, I have been very up and down. I am better than I was, but realized not where I want to be. I also realize there is absolutely no benefit in sharing my life online. None. I have gotten nothing from it except trolls and nasty people using my words against me.
And honestly, I get it. I am very angry today for a lot of reasons. None have to do with you. I do not know you. None of you. You know me. I am the annoying guy who writes and asks you to buy art and then you tell me its not worth it or the guy who asks for thinking about a paid subscription here or a donation. That is me.
I do not see the light at the end of the tunnel today. I do not. I did. But I do not today. I do not appreciate people I do not know pretending to know me. There are three people online who truly know me.
And I am in a very very very bad mood today. I am tired of being fucked by people who are bad people.
But I am going to lie to you. Life is unicorns and rainbows.
That is what true influencers do, isn’t it?