Self Worth

It is real nice to finally feel better. After two weeks of fevers and coughing and being achy and just wanting to rest, I really like feeling like my old self, the one that wants to get things done. I still am coughing a little, but I am probably only 3-4 days out from going to hit the gym with my son.

So I have a lot to talk about and not really sure why I am starting with this one. But I am.

So there is a person I no longer speak to who we used to speak every single day. Smart guy, talented, funny, heartful and heartless. He had his own battles, ignores then to fix other people. Thinks he is the smartest person in the room when he is not, also will beat himself up when he should not. Pretends things do not bother him when he loses sleep over them often. And hates being told how to do things. Really one of the most fun people I spoke to.

At the time, he was trying to figure out what avenue to go online and how to make money. I was adament about him starting a Patreon or Ko-Fi (Substack was not around, but he is extremely sucessful at it now). He would always tell me that it was like begging people for money and I would disagree to no end.

“No, you are giving people something. Words, compassion, thoughts…whatever. There is nothing wrong with being compensated for it.”

Well, he did finally listen, he did other ventures, and now is successful. Like I said, I do not speak to him and never will, but I also would be lying if i did not say I was happy with where he is now. He is a genuine person.

One of the hardest things as an online personality is finding the fine line between knowing your worth and being called a grifter. And that is being genuine. I think Brooklyn Dad Defiant is an online personality who knows his worth. he provides people with amazing content, and if he gets tips and compensated for it, then there is nothing wrong with it. One the flip side, I have always felt the Krass brothers are grifters. they play both sides of the fence, and will say what they need to so that you will fill their bitcoin pockets.

And I have always had an issue with non genuine people. Joe Walsh is one. One of the nastiest and hurtful people who has said the worst things. Then, one day, he says “Trump Bad”, the right hates him, and he panders to the left. I cannot deal with that.

Michael Cohen is the same way. Do you know how many lives he threatened and ruined for Donald Trump? Yet, now he says “Trump Bad”, all is forgiven.

A lot of Republicans pander to the left. Liz Cheney is the worst. I cannot get over how the left goo goos over her and yet she voted with Trump like 96% of the time.

But enough about the negative because this is not the point. The point is, I am a firm believer that people who provide a service, whether it is jokes or writing or being that personality for you, should be compensated. If someone from Jersey or a she wrote or a angry staffer thinks they should be compensated for their words, then they should.

But I really do not care about any of them. This post is about is understanding my self worth. Believe it or not, but this post was supposed to be about why I quit selling art and I could not find the words. I loved doing art. LOVED IT! I hated the selling process, but got used to it. Making a custom piece for someone or a depression piece would make my whole day. But something happened…

I heard voices. The far left would call me a grifter. I knew I was not. i was providing a piece of art and myself for a price. But the far left could not stop sayiing it. The funny part was it was never the right. The right would just call me a shitty artist which their squirrel could make what I make. That I was okay with.

But the harassment and the anger and the stalking of the far left for years got to me, and actually changed how I think. If you follow me on Threads, you know I am slowly getting into politics again, but I am not the same person I was from 2015-2019. I am not side by side with the Squad and I am not making thoughts about Israel because of a few TikTok videos. Gen Z is acting like Israel just started lol. Yeah, been around before booomers.

So I stopped. I was tired of them insulting my RBG and Clinton. I was sick of them insulting my depression pieces. I really was tired of having to lock my account and close comments. Plus, I found a great partner and sell sports cards. There is no controversy in that.

When I would sell art, some people would gasp at the price. Others would tell me I have no clue what my self worth it. And I go back to my former friend, who truly is one of the most talented people I have ever known, and he could not put a price on himself.

So this took way too many directions, but I guess I am here to say I am still trying to figure out my self worth. I am not a grifter. While I have faults, I also am genuine. And I miss art. I miss drawing commander and bringing my words to life. So I am bringing that back. Will I sell? Yeah, but differently.

That is all. Oh, I did hear my former friend is dating someone famous. Kind of cool. I hope they take it one day at a time.

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