I am OK
You know what is weird. I can remember a time where i would rush to tell everyone what was going on in my life, good or bad. I would put myself out on the internet and basically share my whole entire life, for nothing back in return.
I shared both of my children being born. I shared my 200 pound weight loss, which happened twice and coming on a third time. I shared work experiences along with gym stories. I would share what I ate and stories of my past.
I did this with asking for nothing in return. I just posted it and it was a great feeling to tell people who I did not know or barely knew everything about my life.
But to be honest, something switched in me. While the world changed, social media has become worse, people have become increasingly hateful and Anti-Semitic…that is not what changed me. I just got to a point where I no longer want to share everything.
Now, this is not to say I do not want to share my opinion on topics, because i do. I want to talk about things like Caitlin Clark and the election this year. And yes, I want to share that here because this is a place I can share those thoughts, and you, for better or worse, want to hear it. You subscribed. It is not like my story will just fall in someone’s lap.
But when it comes to me, my life, I lost that desire to share it. I lost the desire to tell you everything going on and the impact things have on me. I keep trying to find it. I thought my son’s baseball would bring it back. It did not. I tried to share my weight loss again, and I do not. This is a weird thing to hear from me, but I am a very private person by nature. The last 15 years of sharing everything is outside of my comfort zome. I think it is time to go back in there.
Asking for you to subscruibe or give me a tip on Ko-Fi is outside my comfort zone. Pushing art is as well. I have not been comfortable for some time, because those have been necessary evils. I say evils because as much beauty as my art brought, it brought a lot of pain. When you see the worst in people you respect, it is not easy.
So I am going to share some of my thoughts, but I think I am staying away from getting personal. I am staying away from telling you everything about me. You know a lot if you have followed me for a while. And I am hoping that stance will change, but I also know this post has been inside me for a couple of years, so it is not easy to write.
So yeah, I am going to share opinions. But not so much about me. So if you are wondering, just know…
I am OK.