Forcing a Day 1
So if you have been following me on Twitter, or even reading here for the past couple of weeks, you can probably sense that I am not doing so great mentally. More so, my anxiety is truly through the roof.
I really do not know why. Honestly I do not. But I am worried about my health and finances and kids and everything and honestly, none of it is warranted. None at all.
But that is the thing about anxiety. It isn’t rational. It makes no sense. And it chips away at you so you worry about things you do not need to worry about.
So for the last week, I have been stressing about everything. And with that, did not accomplish some things I wanted to. Which made me feel like a failure. So it was just a nasty domino effect that was getting worse and worse every day.
When I woke up today, I once again felt that anxiety. But I decided to do everything in my power to ignore it.
I posted some art for sale on Twitter. I truly have not done a ton of art over the last few months and want to do it again. It helps me relax and it is fun and it is cool to put my thoughts and tweets on paper. Decided to just sell each piece for $50 shipped now. Make it easier.
I posted some sports cards. Looking through cards and posting helps ease me. I try to give the best deals possible. I am not looking to rip anyone off. In fact, I always have a 50% off coupon available for my cards.
I am going to workout. I have lost around 130 pounds so far. I truly feel better and have a ton more energy. My son and I are starting to workout together on Wednesday. That is pretty exciting to me.
I won’t let my anxiety get me down. It is so much easier said than done, but I am just going to keep doing things to keep my mind occupied so I do not need to focus on it.
So today is my Day 1. I have had a lot of them. Not really for any other reason other than working hard to realize my anxiety is lying and working hard to achieve my goals.
But I will not let my anxiety stop me from living my life.
Not today. And one day at a time is how I am taking this.
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