B*tching Vs. Concern
So without going into detail, there was a situation that happened months ago that I wanted a resolution for. It was something that I could not take care of right away and knew I had to wait for the right people to take over before airing my issues. This is something that has caused me a huge amount of anxiety and stress, because it was an important issue in Tony Posnanski land, but also I knew that it was a risk to really complain about it.
So last week was my chance, and I got an hour to talk about it. I was very careful to make sure I stuck to facts rather than opinion, which was incredibly difficult to do. But I did teeter on both, and, to my surprise, it was taken seriously and will be resolved.
I am sure you want me to go into detail about this, but I have really stopped doing that online, especially lately. I have been open and transparent for 15 years, and I think I can share things without posting everything about me. But this was an issue I was so happy that it was received the way it was.
Anyway, I did tell a close friend about it and she said “I am glad they knew the difference in b*tching and a concern.”
I stopped.
I never really had that put to me like that. And after hearing it, I kind of thought about my life online. And honestly, that is a perfect way to describe everything I have done online.
There are a variety of topics I have been involved in. I think politics is a concern for the most part. I lived through the Trump years and do not want to do that again. I have seen how Republicans have voted on social issues and focusing on bullying marginalized groups rather than helping Americans. But I also realized that commenting on Lauren Boebert giving handjobs in theaters and Donald Trump lying about his weight really is not the way about it. Sure, you can spin it and say that if they lie about that then they also lie about everything and you can also say both are hypocritical when they talk about family values and Trump’s opinion on the weight of others. But it is still b*tching. That is not the concern. So focusing on policies and local elections is the concern I have had. But yes, it is fun to talk about Marjorie Taylor Greene’s three toed foot.
John Fetterman dressing in a hoodie to vote is a huge b*tching session. Who cares? I have never understood why someone gives a f*ck about what anyone wears to vote. I care about the vote! And I realized that a lot of my time online was b*tching.
I say that because nothing came of it. Trump won in 2016. Boebert is undefeated in her elections. So what good came of complaining about the dumb aspects? Nothing.
Yesterday there was a Republican debate and I swear I did not even realize it until I woke up this morning. The candidates are so unlikeable it is not even funny. How hard is it to actually be a likeable candidate? As much as I dislike Donald Trump, I am also not stupid enough to understand that I could actually see why people like him. But Vivek, Haley, Christie, DeSantis are truly just people who are unlikeable. They cannot beat a guy who is facing numerous indictments.
Okay, I am getting off topic here. But what I realized is I want to make a difference in this world. Not politics, but to help people in general and make an impact. With the meeting I had, I made an impact on at least four lives. It was a really good feeling. When I post something online, sure it gets like and retweets and views, but what impact am I having?
So I am really trying to limit my b*tching. If someone comments on Taylor Swift’s looks, I always come back with a comment. That is a concern. Ugly motherf*ckers should not judge others.
See what I did there?
When people would back out of art sales or troll me to lose followers, it was a concern. Especially since that is how I fed my family. But a lot of online is b*tching.
And I guess this post really went a different way then I wanted it to. But in the end, I am just happy that after waiting for six long months, important people took my concerns just as that. And that was a relief.
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