Blame
I do not know if I am fully ready to write about the election, but I am ready to share thoughts.
I am ready to write again and share my voice whether it is correct or not. I do know this.
I was shocked in 2016 when the Democrats lost. Like shocked. I could not understand and I was convinced we would win. I knew there were obstacles like James Comey, Susan Sarandon, and things like that. But I did not understand how Donald Trump could lose.
In 2020, I was shocked how close the race was. I mean, we were in a pandemic. The previous four years were run poorly. Every day someone in Trump’s administration would be fired, regulations were thrown out the window, and hate filled the streets. Joe Biden was a popular candidate. He should have swept the floor with Trump. It should not have come down to a few swing states.
So I would be lying to you if I was shocked about these results. I am not. I am shocked with how wide the margin was. I am shocked with how quickly he won. Kamala was an amazing candidate. She was. So was Hillary. So was Joe. But there is a link for the last eight years that I am realizing and just not ready to post about. And every one of the people I just mentioned would have lost this year.
And now comes the blame game. Blame white women, blame white men, blame latino women, blame Jill Stein, blame Moo Deng. Okay, I do blame that fucking hippo. But still.
I am the first to blame everything around me when things are not correct. But maybe I need to look at myself a little more. I need to look at why we are here.
Because things will not change if I keep thinking a felon should lose because he is a felon. This man has portrayed himself now as the working mans man. He literally shits on a gold toilet. He has been married three times with four kids (I know he has fice kids but hate Eric so much I will say four). He has not truly done hard work a day in his life. Yet, this is what people associate him with. They feel he will do right for them when he clearly has proven that he has not.
Trump is good at fear. He is good at making people feel about losing all their money as long as a transgender person is not playing on the women’s basketball team. Which is a topic in itself how people are so fucking stupid to think surgeries happen like McDonald’s drive thru orders. Jesus, how hard is it for people to want to be happy?
And of course, eggs. People and eggs. The price of eggs. It is one of the dumbest arguments. But how can I explain to someone who voted for Trump how bad our economiy was in 2020 and where it is today. No, they watch TV and Tiktok. They see the memes on Facebook. They do not realize how crucial healthcare for women is. No, they think it is murdering babies. They have no clue.
I am angry because things will change. It will not be a pleasurable 4 years. I am in the minority where I do still believe that even with Republicans in power, there are enough checks and balances for change in a few years. But we should have won. We are the party of the working class. We just an absolutely poor job expressing that.
And the worst part is the people who will be hurt the most are the ones who voted for Trump, just like in 2016. I should not have any pity but I do because i have some compassion. I feel bad for 57% of Floridians who understand that “abortion” is healthcare yet could not pass a bill because our Governor moved the goal posts. I am mad that states voted Dem down the line except for president.
What does being mad get? Nothing really. I just need to keep sharing my thoughts and writing. I need to not listen to the never Trumpers and listen to the people who have always been supportive of the Dem policies. I need to ignore the very far left who basically are trump supporters. And let me be clear, the people who did not vote for Harris because of Gaza have NO idea what is to come. None.
So here we are. In 2016 I blamed Susan Sarandon and James Comey. In 2020, I blamed the pandemic. And today…
I blame myself. I have a lot of work to do.
Thank you for reading as always. Will be posting a whole lot more.
I admire you for being able to dig deep inside and try to copewith the political arena that has become America. I can not do the same. I tried in 2016. Had tolerance for those who voted differently but at the same time, I saw that there is a deep undercurrent of hatred and prejudice and ignorance that attracts such cult leaders and they zero in like the predator they are. I'm bitter because cuts that are on the table will affect me and my family. I've seen what cuts to healthcare can do, when I was a Psychiatric home care nurse. I also saw the level of poverty that I thought didn't exist because I was comfortable in my two income, two story home on one acre of land in the woods, far from anything to remind me of poverty and despair. After visiting 5 to 7 clients a day and traveling over 200 miles a day, I would see despair, discouragement, and downright poverty. I didn't know that existed here in Northern Maine, because it didn't pertain to me until it did. Now that hatred and prejudice and ignorance is no longer undercurrent. It is big and bold and in your face, if you want to see it. I am already seeing outright comments that would have been removed by an administer of a website, but now they remain and get a lot of likes. Hatred is emboldened and the line will continue to fill as whatever ails someone will become cause for blame that it is the immigrants, the minorities, the political party, the welfare recipients etc who have taken their jobs. As an empath, i have sensitivities toward those who don't met America's ideal citizen. Not hard to do as they are my family members, my friends and members of our small community. I too don't understand how the amount of people who voted for that wretched excuse for a man, with all the damage he has done and has said he will do. I don't get it. I feel that I have seen the best of America as I am a baby boomer, and we are dying fast. My father was a WWII vet who was in Germany, he didn't talk much or at all about what he saw but he did return to make a typical post war family and life and was successful because he believed in American and the belief that all were created equal. Does anyone know where equality is now? Did it ever exist? I was born in Canada because it was the nearest hospital in our area, living on the Canadian border, so I have dual citizenship, as long as it is recognized by either country. Maybe I will be told to go back to Canada, who knows, nothing will surprise me. I'll gladly go, two of my daughters already live there. Once my obligation to my elderly mother in a nursing home is completed, I will sell our home most likely to a trumper, as most of the lands and farms have been bought by them in recent years. Healing AR15s in the night, shooting like some third- world country street warriors is very relaxing. Local people can't afford a home loan, even with two jobs at hand. So someone will eventually see our home for sale and we will move it on to whoever pays the price and we are gone. I may forget to mention a few things about the house, like the need to shovel and remove snow off the deck after every snow fall, or monitoring the cellar sump pump through out the year. Better have generator. Then there are the insects and critters that seek refuge in your warm home. Things that outsiders wanting a Maine wood experience know nothing about. I have a lot to process, how to remain true to my convictions and how to get along with others. I'm failing. So, let's focus on me and lose weight because all is better in the world if I can make changes to my BMI. Week 6 and 7 lbs down, so many more to go, once again. I'll spend my long Maine winter downsizing both body and household, and look to move to Canada next Spring. I may not wait until my mother is deceased. I have kept that life on hold for too long. If I am not able to visit her because the borders are closed, then my two other siblings, who live in Florida and Texas can come see her.
It’s beyond me how people continue to vote against their best interests time and time again. I don’t want to see anyone suffer, but maybe the only way they will learn is through natural consequences. Or maybe not, since they thought they were better off four years ago while we were in the midst of a mishandled pandemic.
Round One of MAGA crap burned me out. I’m not ready for Round Two.
Thanks for articulating what a lot of us are feeling.